Done, Son!

It is finally over and I can't keep any of the past happenings in order inside my head. The wedding itself was a whirlwind, but add to that a family episode because of a dumb uncle trying to crap on our day. The four of us sped through traffic late Sunday night to get to Fontana and try to clear stuff up for my father because of the rumors he heard through my uncle. And yes, maybe my uncle was trying to "warn" my parents, but why on the day of the wedding? It is the one day he should have left my parents alone. And this is the part where I think this man is evil. May God deal with you as he sees fit because I know it'll be sweeter than me egging your house.

Anyhow, it was a pretty huge deal and now relationships have been affected. I don't know where we go from here. I prayed this morning that God would just guide us towards where he wants us to go and towards the way he wants us to act.

The next day we ran a lot of errands and spent most of the day talking, sitting, and quietly crying. Our hearts ached and we were angry but we made a pact not to talk about it at the honeymoon. We left for it the next day.

And thank God for friends because they made it easier for us not to fall into our own thoughts. We had such a blast during the day chilling out at the private beach with our pina coladas and playing games with awesome punishments at night. This is exactly what I needed. What I realized on this trip is that what I once found truth in "nothing is thicker than blood" I no longer do. I do believe it to be true to a certain degree because I realized that the people at the trip are our family. And I hold them close to my heart. But if my own family pushes me away, then I won't push to get closer because B and I, our family now, is our first priority so I'm done trying to win anybody's approval.